Thanks to those who sent messages of remembrance and love to Ellie yesterday. 12 years since her saddest day.
I took the day off work, and Ellie and I spent it together; we held hands, we went for coffee. We went out for dinner as a family in the evening.
Ellie's house sale completed yesterday too...we're relieved about that. At least something good can happen on a sad day.
Tomorrow is the 2nd anniversary of my saddest day. I can hardly believe that it's two years. In some ways it seems like a lifetime ago, in other ways it seems like yesterday.
So today feels a little bit like coming up for air.....I managed to burn off some nervous energy on a long run this morning, and buzzing in my mind all the way were the words, "Come, let us sing for joy to the LORD; let us shout aloud to the Rock of our salvation" (Ps 95:1).
Buzzing in Ellie's mind is, "This day is holy to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength." (Neh 8:10b)
So tomorrow we will go to church as a family, we will worship the Lord together, and if you're there, it's likely to be me shouting the name "Jesus" at the top of my voice during our time of worship....after all, He is our rock, our salvation, our hope and our song.
Thinking of you all as you contemplate and reflect on your saddest days.
ReplyDeleteA film that I find quite inspiring at these times is The Lion King no less! It's alright to laugh! It's the part where Rafiki meets Simba after his exile, Simba goes off to think and looks in the drinking hole and sees his reflection. He then looks up to the stars and his father 'appears' and says "Remember".
I feel God would say it's important to remember not just what has been lost but to remember everything that has been invested by the person who's gone. Nothing is wasted where God is concerned and hope fills the void. He is God and He is good even when we are sad and that's why we can keep on keeping on. :-) Lots of love xxx