Friday was the last first of the year.....it was no. 3's first birthday since the great sadness....we've now done all first birthdays since, the first summer holidays since, first Mother's Day since, first Father's Day since, first wedding anniversary since, first Christmas since....etc etc.
The only first that remains is the first anniversary of the great sadness which is just one month away.
Absolutely no idea how that will be, but I will take council from dear Ellie who's (very sadly) walking this same path and who's done the great sadness anniversary many times before. For her it's Feb 10th, for me it's Feb 12th.......so I am rather hoping to come across Dr Who sometime soon, who (in my ideal scenario) will take us and our children into his Tardis and drop us back on planet earth on Feb 13th 2011. Failing that tho, I reckon it's Ps 62:5-6 once again....
My Soul finds rest on God,
My hope comes from Him.
Truly He is my rock and my salvation;
He is my fortress I will not be shaken.