One of the children asked me this week,
"Do you ever go for a day without thinking about mum?"
My response was, "I don't ever go for an hour, or even a minute without thinking about your mum".....
When I chatted to Ellie about it later, she described it as being like 'Background music'....always there - playing away through every event and every decision and every moment of the day - and also during dreams in her case :-(
Sometimes the background music becomes much louder but its dirge never stops playing....droning on and on - I wish I could turn it off but alas, I can't.
This week has been particularly hard as the background music has become much louder for each of the children at different times.
Can somebody turn the volume down please?
On the positive side ....one more pet has kicked the bucket this week (chicken hijacked by a fox last night) bringing the total number of deceased animals over the last few months to five. If we carry on at this rate, not only will we be without eggs, but there'll be no more space to bury them all in the garden :-)